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I feel like I have been writing a lot about happiness. I am going through a time in my life where I finally feel happy. I will be making changes to my life in the coming months to make me even happier but lately I am feeling very lucky with how happy I am. Feeling good, feeling happy and feeling proud can be the hardest things. I compare and critique myself a lot, probably too much. But I grew up as a ballet dancer trained to find every flaw in the mirror and fix it. It made me critique everything. 

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself

I haven’t been happy in a bikini in years, I have always been self conscious, nervous, ashamed and scared. Why? well who knows I was the same way 2 years ago, yet I look at pictures of myself and laugh because heck I looked pretty good. Now I am not as muscular as I used to be, and I am not at the studio training 15 hours a week. So yeah I look different. I have focused on school, work, and the relationships in my life. I am incredible happy just not with my body. 

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself

I will be 100% honest, I was terrified to take these photos, the thought of everyone seeing me in a bikini was frightening. I see tons of people friends, bloggers, celebrities, on social media looking amazing!!! But I just compare myself more. 

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself

When we took these photos Brooklyn left for a vacation a few days after so I has to wait a over a week while she was gone to get the photos, I was so anxious to see how they looked and how I felt about them. For once I loved them. 

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself

I was shocked and so happy with how they looked. Sure I still see lots I can fix and I already have a plan in place to start working on that but hey this wasn’t so bad. Yes I have rolls, cellulite, fat, muscle, I got it all. I am not a size 0 or even a size 2 or 4. I am tired of feeling bad about myself because of the size of clothing I wear and how I feel comparing myself. 

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself My goal for this year is to focus on feeling proud of my body and building back the muscle I had. I was very strong my legs were crazy strong same with my arms. I miss that and want more than ever to get it back. I am excited to have this as my release and escape from school and have a focus on building my strength. No I don’t want to bulk or get ripped, I prefer long lean muscles like the dancer I was/am. 

Sydney shares what she does to feel happy and feel confident about herself

Bathings suits are scary so why the heck to we put so much pressure onto looking good in them? I know so many people in all sizes and we all share the same fear: the judgement of wearing a bikini. But I don’t care, the haters, the judgers can go and think, say or type something mean but because mentally I know who’s opinion is important it doesn’t phase, me. You need to feel happy, that is all that matters. If that is a full piece, bikini, coverup, swim shorts, t-shirts whatever it is wear it don’t care what others say or do and feel happy with yourself. ( P.S This bikini I am wearing its only $12!!)




  1. Nataly
    August 8, 2017 / 7:05 am

    This suit is so cute! And these pictures are stunning! Love it! xo, Nataly

  2. WOW you look amazing, I know a few dancers and they critique themselves just as hard as you explained. I have body issues I feel like most women go through the same phases in life.

  3. August 8, 2017 / 7:34 am

    Thank husbis a beautiful mindset to have! You look amazing!

  4. August 8, 2017 / 8:00 am

    You look amazing girly!!! I have been obsessed with one piece swimsuits lately!

  5. August 8, 2017 / 8:15 am

    Everything about these photos and this post is beautiful. You look absolutely radiant and I’m so happy for you 🙂

  6. August 8, 2017 / 8:54 am

    Girl you are absolutely STUNNING in these photos!!! Seriously gorgeous!! Love the location too!

  7. August 8, 2017 / 10:06 am

    You are SO right!! You look absolutely beautiful and breathtaking in these photos. Isn’t that feeling so so so good? When you think… wow… is that me? I look amazing!

  8. August 8, 2017 / 3:05 pm

    You look great!!! This suit is super flattering on you. Cudos for getting out of your comfort zone.

  9. August 8, 2017 / 5:39 pm

    You look so good! Your happiness shines through in these photos!

  10. August 8, 2017 / 6:07 pm

    That bathing suit is so cute and looks great on you, girl! So glad to hear you’ve found your happy place in life!

  11. August 8, 2017 / 6:45 pm

    I feel ya girl. As a former competitive dancer in all styles, it can be so discouraging not having the body that I used to. I’m working on getting there again though. You look stunning! That suit is so flattering. Also, talk about the perfect photo location.

  12. August 8, 2017 / 9:42 pm

    You look gorgeous! It took me years to wear a bikini again because of body image issues, and it’s so funny that now all I want is a one-piece! Lol totally for style purposes this time around though. Loving our bodies the way they are takes time sometimes, but it’s totally worth it when we finally do. I mean they’re the only ones we’ve got! 🙂

  13. August 9, 2017 / 5:14 am

    such a cute suit! I haven’t had luck with Romwe, but I’m happy you did!

  14. August 9, 2017 / 9:58 am

    You know what I love? Your honesty! It takes a lot to admit what you’re feeling and your fears, especially to everyone on the internet. But you not only showed your vulnerability, but you almost laughed in their face by encouraging yourself with these gorgeous photos. You are absolutely BEAUTIFUL, my friend. I love that your body is imperfectly perfect – like everyone (just not everyone has the guts to share it, and they try to edit away the reality). You made me feel better about MY body and MY “imperfections” just reading this. I bet you anything you’ll realize how much you love your body the more you tell yourself that you’re beautiful – because that’s just the fact of the matter! You are!

  15. Anna English
    August 9, 2017 / 7:08 pm

    Such a cute suit! Love those bottoms.

  16. August 9, 2017 / 7:52 pm

    You look great! And that swimsuit Is really cute on you! #Lovethebodyyourin


  17. August 10, 2017 / 3:10 pm

    You look amazing! Feeling good in yourself starts from within, and confidence radiates when you feel comfortable within yourself. There’s nothing to say that being a size 0 will make you more confident than you would be at a size 18. It all depends on how you feel. I love that you spread this message in this post and radiate positivity!
    -El x

  18. August 13, 2017 / 7:00 pm

    You look amazing! I totally understand your feeling. This suit is darling

  19. August 16, 2017 / 8:11 pm

    Look. At. You!!! This suit is just too cute on you…

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